Concerned about my
health going forward

About me... I'm 36 years old, male. I live alone and have no children. I drink basically every night of the week except Sunday. That's the day I give my insides a break. I always start drinking around 6-7 pm and stop before 10 pm so I can function the next day.

My drink of choice is Vodka and diet coke and I always drink on an empty stomach to intensify the effect. Usually between 8-10 drinks in just a few hour window. I always drink alone. Weekends can be 10-15 drinks or more. I can go without drinking a day or two, only issue I have is trouble falling asleep without the alcohol in my bloodstream.

The funny thing is I have been doing this same routine for over 12 years and actually in fairly good health. I body-build and hit the gym 4-5 times a week, after work and before I start the drinking procedure. I eat a better diet than most Americans and I'm not overweight. I had a CT scan of my liver a couple of years ago to see how destroyed it is and to my surprise it was perfect, not even showing fatty liver. I have, however developed very high blood pressure and have gastritis often.

I am also very successful at my job of 15 years as I now run the company I work for. I am financially secure but don't quite have enough to retire just yet. I'm contemplating resigning to enjoy life more, but I know in my heart if I do that I'll just become a full time drunk.

I guess I'm at the precipice and know it's time to stop but have not found the means.

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health going forward

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Apr 23, 2020
Support can help with new discipline
by: Anonymous

You don't want to do this anymore, as you're sharing and you're reflective. As highly functional as you are, don't kid yourself that you are not slowly destroying your health. You are ready and you don't want this destruction in your life. Follow through and get support. You can handle a new discipline, and you're already together in a lot of ways. Good luck!

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