by No Name
Last night I met a friend for dinner and had two glasses of wine.
I was on my way home after, and told myself I would have “one” more and stopped at this bar my neighbors own. Well I that didn’t happen and I remember seeing my neighbor there and his wife who I am more friends with was not there. He sat and chatted with me and asked me questions about my recent divorce and I told him, but do not remember what all I said.. I remember him telling me some of the problems he had but I’m realizing it may not have been appropriate. I’m worried what if I said or did something. I don’t want to ruin my friendship with is wife as her boys play with son all the time. I messaged him today and told him I didn’t remember much and if I said or did anything offensive, I was sorry. He told me he had me ubered home (I did not know where my car was this am) and he said I was good, no need to apologize. I am going to their house tomorrow for their son’s party but I can’t help but dwell. I’m going through a tough time with my divorce and am very vunerable right now.
Then when I got home last night.. apparently I walked over to my other neighbors house, woke them up, asking for more booze. This neighbor walked me home but I was plastered, couldn’t find my keys and peed myself in front of her on my front porch. Then I set my alarm off and the cops showed up.. All was settled by my neighbor as I was in a drunken state in my house.
I told myself no more and am attending my first meeting on Tuesday.
The shame and guilt and worry from blacking out is overwhelming..
I am a Mental Health Counselor who is licensed in both New York (LMHC) and North Carolina (LCMHC). I have been working in the Mental Health field since 2015. I have worked in a residential setting, an outpatient program and an inpatient addictions program. I began working in Long Island, NY and then in Guelph, Ontario after moving to Canada. I have since settled in North Carolina. I have experience working with various stages of addiction, depression, anxiety, mood disorders, trauma, stages of life concerns and relationship concerns.
I tend to use a person-centered approach which simply means that I meet you where you are and work collaboratively to help you identify and work towards accomplishing goals. I will often pull from CBT when appropriate. I do encourage use of mindfulness and meditation and practice these skills in my own life. I believe in treating everyone with respect, sensitivity and compassion.
I recognize that reaching out for help is hard and commend you for taking the first step. We have professionals available who would be happy to help you move closer to reaching your goals related to your drinking concerns. You may reach these professionals by calling 877-322-2694.
Apr 15, 2020
That’s not a bad place to be brother (shame,guilt, remorse). To me,it’s an excellent (remember when) reminder. Keep it handy and God Bless You my brother.