My life

by Matt
(Bensalem)

I am suffering from alcohol. I'm killing my family and I'm killing myself. This is an uncurable disease that destroys everything . all I want to do is get better not only for myself but for my family. I hate myself every day. I've been to detox twice and rehab once and I don't care. Being an alcoholic I am the most selfish person in the world .knowing my family is going through what they're going through and I still pick up the bottle because all I think about is myself ! I hope that one day I can be the son the brother the father uncle that I used to be . I'm ashamed embarrassed I can't even look in the mirror . Being an addict drugs or alcohol takes over everything you stand for . So I'm waking up tomorrow and going to a meeting . Hope I inspired someone . Tomorrow is a fresh start #mattyb